Sunset.

Marques Houston's song, Sunset, has been out for a long time but it seems like everyone's making covers for it in an overflow right now. So taunting, I swear.
I remember first hearing this song.. def didn't mean the same thing it does to me now.
It's one of those.. "damn this is all me" songs. Bah.

VJ & Charissa's (aka Boom Boom & Chaboy!) wedding was on Friday.
Like we kept saying, we're getting old!
We used to go to debuts, now we're going to weddings.
Everyone looked so beautiful and it was def so so SO good to see everyone.
It's great how even though we hardly see each other, when we do, we just jump right back into the same old thing.
Same old us, same good times and same cherished moments.
We're all doing our own thing but when it comes down to it, we still got each other.
I've been pretty emotional the past few days due to a little visit from my supposed-to-be monthly friend (LOL).. so excuse me if I sound like I'm dragging a pile of tissues along for the ride.

Some people will never understand how much my friends mean to me.
I cherish you guys soooo much
and for the ones I can truly still call my friends, thank you.
Whether we've been friends for 10 years or 3 months or whatever in between, you have made such a big impact on my life and for that I am forever grateful.
Such wise words, such simple acknowledgments, such love.

But always beware.
There will always be people who will try to take advantage of you.
It's happened to me a handful of times in my past.
They take my kindness for weakness.
Just remember, I can always forgive but I will not ever forget.
I will always be able to forgive you for hurting me but sorry,
I can never forget the hurt.
I'll be able to move forward and maybe we can start over
but with my good memory comes remembering every little scrapping detail.
Sorry.

Kyle, your blog the other day touched me soo hard.
I hope you don't mind me sharing with the world your beautiful words.
You've given me some of the best advice.. here's your own personal shout out.
Thank you.
[I realized that important people in our lives come and go. I experience this all the time. Things always seem to be "so" perfect, but in the end, they are always the ones walking away from you... You live, you learn and you progress... You accept what just happened and you commit yourself to avoid doing the things you use to do, so that you can become a better person...
"Accept, Understand, Learn and Progress."]

On a happier note, it's my birthday tomorrow, bitches!
Today I woke up thinking about my birthday last year.
Almost one year later, SO much has changed.
Damn life with it's curveballs and mysteries.

Frig, we're getting old.

So tomorrow is VJ & Charissa's wedding.
My first set of friends getting married which is def making me feel old.
First graduating from university, now friends getting married..
and next Tuesday I turn the big 2-2!!!!
SHIT! Life is just speeeding right now.. where are the damn brakes?

Can't wait to see everyone all dolled up tomorrow;
it's def been too long since we've ALL seen each other.
Annnd obvi, a shitload has changed but I'm still excited, regardless.

Timmies talk with Marv and Mare last night about our "primes".
It really sucks how all our primes were in highschool,
and we are all starting to feel the decline.. ALREADY?!
We suck at this game hahaha
We gotta revamp ourselves, for sure.
We're not even out in the real world yet! Omfg.

..which reminds me!
Once I get back from Cuba, I def gotta get on that job search tip.
FML.

On another note, last Friday was too much to handle.
Apparently I had a blaaaast and I remember having a wicked time.
It was def a bittersweet day, for those who know.
But good thing I was surrounded with family and friends
who let me celebrate my birthday (part 1!) with a bang!!!!

Sidenote: If I could change one thing about my body, it would be my legs
hate hate haate my legs *angry face*
mommy and daddy, why'd you have to create these legs guuuuuy

peace and love.

Bittersweet.

Be prepared for curveballs to be thrown at you, every day of your life.

This is so bittersweet - moments like this.
If only I could blog everything that's going through my head right now...
but if I tried, the words that come out and the sentences I'd create would look like an impossible algebraic expression that no one would have an answer to.

I'm so happy yet so sad.
So ready to push even when a part of me is pulling back so hard.
Things will never be the same, obvi.

(Friday will def be bittersweet. so so SO bittersweet)

Back at it.

I'm back!
I know it's been a looong time and I failed on my "blogging everyday" tip.
But I'll try to get back to this regularly starting... now.

So, things have been changing like mad lately, good and bad, I guess.
For the most part, I just gotta suck it up and live my life.
And if you know me, that's what I'm doing.

$$$ life isn't so swell, but I'm surviving.
Job life needs to pick up, I still gotta get on that.. changing my availability for more hours (LOL)
Fam life is good; can't remember the last time we got into a fight or bickering (y)
Friend life is good as well; can't complain but obvi there's some things I wish could go my way. But now isn't a time to be greedy. I know that.

So you gotta take the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So I'll bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh 'cause I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
- Keri Hilson

Still trying to live life with no regrets, but it's hard as hell, you know?
I don't regret my past, obvi, I loved it.
But hopefully in the future, I'll be able to right my wrongs.
Push forward, that's what I'm doing; it's all I can do.
push push push

On another note, I'm pretty sure I'm too nice for my own good.
Yes, I can be a bitch and I may look like one, but trust me, I'm way too nice.
Everyone deserves a second chance right?
But what if that second chance turns into a third, fourth, or more?
Never let anyone take advantage of your kindness like I have.
Stop trying to make everyone happy..
because you'll just end up making yourself feel miserable.
Trust me.

Pray for happiness.
Always.