And it hit me like a ton of bricks..

I've been wanting to get on this blogging tip again for the longest time but I never took the time to make it. It's funny because I've had this account since last March, yet this is my first official blog.

This will indefinitely be my place to vent and let out everything I need to let out...
so beware.
No censorship, no boundaries.. all me.
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So, this is day one, or the end of it, at least.
My mind has been working overtime for the past 28 hours.
I've been let down, shut down, hurt and feeling all alone but ironically enough, I feel so strongly about this.

I know now that we must cherish each day and to never take anything or anyone for granted because you never know when that thing or person will be taken away from you. And in a blink of an eye, your whole world can be turned upside down.

This first day has been filled with a river of tears, mostly because I'm afraid to let go and I'm afraid to see further down the road.
I always thought I was certain about how I felt about you, and I think I still am.
But now that we have decided to take this time apart to figure things out on our own, I am truly grateful that you are a strong enough man to allow for us to go through this, this way.

I never believed in breaks, or breaking up to make up.
But I should've lived by my favourite line....... Never say never.
There will always be times when you will change your mind about something and down the road you'll realize that it was for the better.
I'm just praying to God that this healthy break will lead us back together.

I'm willing to invest all the time and energy needed to make this work.
No regrets, no takebacks.. I want to figure out what I need and what I truly truly want.
Let's see where this takes us.

Time and space.
Time and space.
Time and space.

Everything happens for a reason.
Everything happens for a reason.
Everything happens for a reason.