oh my, how time flies.

It's been over a month since I've updated and looking back at my last entry, it feels good to say that I've been able to do almost 100% of the things I wanted to do in August and more! It was def a very productive month and I was very very busy!

Now things have simmered down because mostly everyone's back in school. I've been using this time to work and make up for all the $$$ I spent during the summer. I've been taking people's shifts like you wouldn't believe but I gotta do what I gotta do.

I still haven't started looking for jobs and I really gotta get on that soon. Once I fix up my resume, I should be good to go. However, I kinda wish I could live the "part-time but almost full-time retail job life" for a little longer. It's fun. Tiring as hell, but fun nonetheless. I guess I'm not ready to fully grow up yet *sigh.

With most of my friends going back to school, it's a little bittersweet that I'm done. The start of the school year also made my revert back to some bad memories and hurtful thoughts. I guess it made it harder that I was thinking about a lot of good times that I really can't go back to. Things haven't been going my way, regardless of what it may have seemed like for the past few months. I wish I could have my cake and eat it, too. But apparently that's not possible. At least not for me.

I've also realized from my volunteering at the SDC that I need to start listening to my own advice. I've been giving pretty good advice about love and losing and relationships and it seems that I've been able to help people through the phones. I just don't understand why I can't suck it up and listen to my own words.

On Facebook, one of my old friends posted this thing on her status, a famous Marilyn Monroe quote, and I wish I could print this out, blow it up and just force myself to understand and accept these words.

"BELIEVE THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
PEOPLE CHANGE SO THAT YOU CAN LEARN TO LET GO.
THINGS GO WRONG SO THAT YOU APPRECIATE THEM WHEN THEY'RE RIGHT.
YOU BELIEVE LIES SO YOU EVENTUALLY LEARN TO TRUST NO ONE BUT YOURSELF.
& SOMETIMES, GOOD THINGS FALL APART SO BETTER THINGS CAN FALL TOGETHER."

Faith & hope, always.